Blogging My Way through the New Year

Hello 2010. This year has quite the challenge ahead of itself. In 2009 I got married AND had a baby. That will be hard to beat. I am truly looking forward to this new year though I worry. I think we all worry but some us more than others... I hate that I worry. Not just about the big stuff but everything. When I began dating again I had one very important goal (ok I had many but one that pertains to this) I specifically looked for someone who calmed me. Like the yin to my yang. My husband is very easy going and Stresses seldom. Success! I found someone that has helped me with my worrying problem. I watch other couples and sometimes wonder why they are together. Really you should be with someone who brings out the best in you. Not the worst. But I think too many people latch on to someone that is all wrong for them... is it love they crave? Maybe there's attraction and even a type of love there. But I've learned that's not always enough. You need real connection to be happy.
Ah speaking of things that are all wrong for us... Too many people hate their job. I had this thought today: why would anyone stay at a job they hate? I would never say you should live to work BUT you should at least find some enjoyment or satisfaction with your job. Let's say you work 40 hours a week that's nearly 2 full days a week at work. Each day you work you're there 1/2 of your waking hours. That's a huge chunk of your life dedicated to working. And let's face it time is money so really it's just not worth it to hate your job. What a waste.
Have you ever had one of those moments where you just needed to cry? And the more you fight it the worst it gets. I think we need to cry. It benifits our body, mind, and soul. I know I need a good cry regularly. And once I've cried until my tears are dry it's like I can face things head on again. Do you always know why you feel like crying? I don't. Maybe it's that all of the tiny things in our lives build up and finally break us.
So one response to my last blog made me think about a few things. There are 2 things I KNOW I CAN do. 1) teach 2) be a mom. And even then I catch myself second guessing myself at these two things when people criticize me. I have very little confidence in the other aspects of my life. And that bothers me. That's hard. As a teacher I always encouraged kids to embrace the things they were good at, try everything else, and accept that you can't be good at everything. The example I always used was I'm a terrible speller (perhaps you've noticed) BUT that doesn't stop me from writing, teaching, or anything else. AND I'm ok with not being a good speller because I'm good at other things. I say this to kids to help them. But yet I hate being less than great at stuff. So why can't I take my own advice? I guess it's hard to cope with being criticized by others. As if everyone just knows how to do it better than me... And so when I work hard on something I stress. About what people might say to me, to others... Or really even what they will think. This makes me nervous to try new things. Anyone else have this problem? Thanks my sweet friends/readers for your support. Maybe me bringing these things up will help someone else confront their problems too.
So someone asked what I'm blogging about. Oh. I hadn't thought about that. I guess I'm blogging about me. My family and friends. And life. I suppose I'd like to spark something in my readers. Maybe you'll relate to what I have to say or be thankful that someone is saying it. It'd be great to get feedback and let other people add to the discussion I'm starting.
And now to wrap this up I'll leave you with a few special thoughts about being a mom. (My mommy friends can add their thoughts too :) )
Tools to survive being a "new" mom:
Laughter... Even when your peed on or awake at 3 am... Or both
Chocolate, a glass of wine or other "comfort" item for the end of a long day
A friend or spouse to unwind with
Things I LOVE about being a mom:
Being needed
The classic baby smell
Cuddeling together
Seeing baby laugh, smile, and try new things
Things I'm annoyed with already:
Being asked "is this your first"
Being treated like I have no idea what I'm doing
Baby clothes sizing is not all the same!

Ok so there's a pile more for each category but I'll add to it AND my readers can add some too :)
Now I'm off to cuddle with Boo so goodnight all!
~Razzy